I should be happy, the sun is shining

"Suddenly this defeat.

This rain.

The blue gone grey

and the browns gone grey

and yellow

a terrible amber.

In the cold streets 

your warm body.

In whatever room

your warm body.

Among all the people

your absence.

The people who are always

not you.

I have been easy with the trees 

too long.

Too familiar with the mountains.

Joy has been a habit.

Now

suddenly

this rain."